You are a fighter, BasketballBaseball21! Look at all you have overcome already. I'm sure that you have days that are really difficult and days that are better, and hope you have a lot more of the better days to come. So, a couple of thoughts. "Drain pain" on a PD cycler is a real concern. Sometimes it can happen because the catheter is not in the right place, and it sucks up against the walls of your abdomen. A machine mode called "Tidal" can often help, because it "floats" the catheter by leaving a bit of fluid in. Moving the cycler up or down relative to your head (using a higher or a lower table, for example) makes a big difference for some people. So, in the really short run, you might want to think about giving cycler PD another chance. In the slightly longer run, 1). You should have a really good chance of getting another transplant quickly, since you are so young, and you did so well with the first one, and 2). If PD is no longer as good of a fit for your life as you'd hoped, there are other options. You can see which one fits YOUR life and goals the best with our matching tool: http://www.mydialysischoice.org. Finally, if you are on FB, I hope you will think about joining our Home Dialysis Central discussion group. It's closed, so no one who isn't a member can see the posts, and we have almost 3,900 other folks who also do PD or some type of home HD, and you can ask anything.