Bob and Mark,
It made my day to hear your strong male assessments of in-center dialysis. No apologies necessary for me, Bob. I have never understood all the patients (captives) who wimp out and take the abusive behaviors that go on in most dialysis clinics. After my very first day of in-center dialysis, I said to myself, “there’s something majorly wrong with this picture!!!”.
I don’t know how I withstood that dysfunctional environment as long as I did. It was quite a lesson on life as to how rotten medical ppl can be to patients when they are inadequately trained and instructed to withhold true care due to the greed of clinic ownership. Every person afflicted with kidney disease who reads these posts should strive to get into a home program if they want to save themselves years of problems and abuse. But like I said, most patients I met in dialysis seemed to feel right at home in the dreary environment. I remember I used to think that most of the nephs, other professionals and techs were so mean-spirited, that I was glad I didn’t grow up in their families! Sadly, most patients must come from dysfunctional families, too, as they acted like doormats and praised those staff who were crude and rude.
In each clinic I was in, there was maybe one or two staff persons that were the exception to the rule- that really cared and acted kind. I never thought I would go to prison, but that’s exactly where I went when I wound up in in-center dialysis. Life is so much better now that I have flown the coop. But in a way, I’m still in prison, because I still have to deal with dysfunctional staff from my clinic, the supplier and the machine company who do not do their jobs right. But it is 100 times better doing dialysis at home away from cold types and control- freak bullies.
Unfortunately, when one has a chronic illness, ones life is never ones own again. Unless one can find a truly good clinic where staff act professional, the best one can do is get in a home program and be as independent as possible. It’s like anything else in life- poor associations will bring you down. The medical world, especially dialysis clinics, has its share of looney tunes. For any patient who wants to regain their health and complete their goals, if your clinic is not professional, try to find one that is, and if you can’t, get as independent as you can in a home program where you have as little contact with them as possible. It’s sad that so many clinics are dysfunctional, but that’s the way it is. Only the strong rise above the circumstances. Make a plan to get into a home program and stick to it = FREEDOM.