[B]Dear Max
I apologise for my late response but I have been in the US at the ADC in New Orleans and only flew home yesterday. My time was pretty full while at the meeting and I didn’t get a chance to reply.
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Hi Dr Agar,
I’m back :-). Thank you for all of your comments on my situation several months ago. Since our last discussion not much has changed. I am still in the clinic three days a week. When we last spoke I had not started my permanent access. I was using a catheter that was installed back in February of last year. I was operated on for my fistula in early October and then again in early December (translocation).
I think that was a wise step … well done.
They have just begun to use my new fistula (about 2 weeks ago) and it seems to be going quite well. I want to use buttonholes and am told that it may be another month before they will be ready for self-cannulation. Once ready and I can stick myself I will begin the move to home-hemo. I will have a caregiver/partner, but I want to do as much as I can do myself.
All those intents and steps seem absolutely spot-on. It seems that you have a wise set of advisers over there, wherever you are.
As in my last comment, I am still hopeful of some return of kidney function. In fact, since coming off of chemo (as noted in our prior discussion), I have seen some improvement. But, I have not had a 24-hour urine test yet.
I think it is good to be hopeful, but I have to say that I am not too sure your best hopes will materialize. It seems your team, too, have that in mind as they have taken the (wise) step of inserting your AVF and proceeding with preparations for home training and home transfer. Your choice, there, is a good one … but then, I would say that, wouldn’t I, as I am a home dialysis ‘nut’.
Over the last few months I have experimented with skipping dialysis to better assess my situation. My clinic does not endorse this, of course. I am doing this on my own. I am normally in the clinic on Monday, Wednesday and Friday and have only skipped a couple of Fridays to give me a four-day stretch without dialysis ahead of lab reports.
While I can understand your clinic not wishing to endorse this, it seems you clearly have enough residual function to allow you the leeway to run your own ‘experiment’ and for this to occur – short term, mind you – until such time as you can come to terms with the shock of what has happened to you and can accept dialysis as your long term existence … for, sadly, that is what I think has to happen here. I would like to be optimistic on your behalf for a return of renal function, but, to be utterly honest, I cant see that happening. Once you can accept that – and that may take some time – then you need to knuckle down and get on with accessing the BEST dialysis you can … and that is the path of home and self-care you have already had laid out for you.
I wanted to see what the impact was. The first thing I noticed was that my critical labs (potassium and phosphorus) do not budge over several days without dialysis. They stay well within range. My BUN and creatinine do budge. BUT, if you look at the trend since May they are budging less and less. Attached is report I put together to show how much each increased on a daily basis.
[B]Your residual renal function … such as it is … is likely sufficient enough to take care of potassium balance … so it is of no surprise that this doesn’t alter in your 4-day experiments. I wouldn’t expect it to.
Phosphate accumulates more slowly and this, also, wouldn’t be likely to ‘budge’ … as you say.
So … both of these non-changing ‘labs’ are not at all unexpected, nor surprising to me.
As you say, your urea and creatinine do change, upwards, during your off-dialysis breaks though your impression has been that the overall trend suggests they are rising to a lesser degree – over time – than they did earlier on.
Urea load and urea concentrations are complex: they are never ‘the same’, in what might otherwise seem a comparable inter-dialytic time-break: the urea load will depend on your dietary protein intake, your anabolic to catabolic metabolic balance (for that particular inter-dialytic period), your volume status (for that particular inter-dialytic period) … etc.
The same might be said for creatinine … though, here, throw in muscle activity and a few other variables as well.
No two inter-dialytic periods are even the same.
Looking at your data, I wonder if the higher urea and creatinine levels early on represented more a period where you were catabolic and were recovering from chemotherapy … and now you have settled into a more stable period of your maintenance therapy.
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A couple of points I should make. One, after 4 days and with high BUN and Creatinine numbers I feel no different.
[B]Nor would you be expected to note any. These levels of urea and creatinine, though of themselves they signify your ESRD, would NOT be expected to induce any discernable symptoms. Urea is remarkably non-toxic, and you would have to have levels that were screamingly higher before you noted any clinical effects. Ditto creatinine.
While your ‘labs’ suggest you are dialysis dependent, they also tell me you appear to be dialyzing well. This means you are feeling well, because your biochemistry is being well cared for through a combination of your dialysis and your residual renal function (RRF). But, your RRF, in my view, is likely to wane, over time … though this ‘waning period’ is going to be measured in months - even to more than a year or two = to your benefit. But, it also would appear that while your RRF is sufficient (for now) to allow your ‘numbers’ to look good, the risk of persisting too long with your ‘experiment’ of ‘missed dialysis days’ is that this while ‘safe’ to do so now, there will come a point where that safety turns to additive risk.[/B]
Two, it seems the trend shows some improvement in kidney function. Time will tell if the trend will continue.
As I have said, I rather doubt this trend, to be honest. I think the ‘trend’ is more likely a stablization ‘trend. I think you should celebrate the fact that you have sufficient RRF to remain well, and well controlled with dialysis, but that you would be wise to come to realize that, for all your wishing it were not so, dialysis is likely here and here to stay, and that you have a unique chance to transition into the best form of dialysis possible … home care and self care HD through an AVF … and that your RRF is the bridge to permit that to occur with the least problems along the way.
I have a few questions. Is there any medical reason my BUN and creatinine would level off at some high level if I had longer periods off of dialysis? Maybe, let’s say, BUN 60 and creatinine 10 or so.
[B]There is a risk, in dialysis, that people fixate too much on ‘labs levels’ and not enough on the whole person, on wellness, and on finding the best dialysis possible to fit lifestyle. ‘Labs’, as you call them over there, are numbers, and just that. Don’t fall into the trap of fixing all your attention on numbers. They simply are markers of level of metabolic waste clearance = a combination of your dialysis + your RRF.
You are, sadly, in that twilight between sufficient RRF to make utter dialysis dependence uncertain, and no RRFF where utter dialysis dependence is unavoidable. And, yes, that is a difficult place to be …
At this point, it boils down to a judgment call to decide which way to jump … to RRF (but deep CKD5 and, likely, as time passes, the onset of increasingly symptomatic non-dialytic CKD5) or dialysis + RRF (and the preservation of health and well-being). I suspect your advisers have recommended the later. They are best placed to continue to give your advice – I am NOT. Their step-by-step plans for you have, in my view, been right on the mark. I would suggest you learn to trust them, and to follow their advice. Seeking further wiggle-room from a net-based adviser is, in my view, unwise.
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And is there any reason to believe that the kidneys might take on more function with the increased need and bring those numbers down on their own?
I have answered this, again and again … and, I believe the answer in a ‘no’ … and I can’t say it more clearly by repeating it yet again.
The other question relates to home-hemo. Would it perhaps improve what little kidney function I do have?
No, but it will give you the best possible combination of good dialysis + the preservation of whatever RRF you still have, for as long as you have it.
By the way, I believe that to be in the GFR 8 to 12 range. That is from about GFR 3 when I was first diagnosed with AKI in 2/14. I will get that confirmed soon with a 24-hour urine test.
I am sorry, but this test is unlikely to resolve any of this. It is not going to be in any way reliable, or contributory.
As a note of caution, I do not plan to experiment on my own for longer periods without the support and oversight of a nephrologist.
To be frank, this is the wisest statement in your post.
Let me add that I am a 70 year old male, in remission from Mantle Cell Lymphoma (MCL) and otherwise in good condition. I walk 20 to 30 miles a week. I continue to make urine at about 1500 cc per day which is about where I was when first diagnosed with AKI in 2/14.
Both of these are to your benefit.
I have one more bit of information to add. I visited our local home dialysis unit yesterday and showed the doc the chart I mentioned in my previous post here. I was there to evaluate home hemo and get advice on creating buttonholes for my new AV Fistula. He strongly recommended PD dialysis after looking at the numbers.
I agree with that … PD is an excellent dialysis choice … particularly while you have residual renal function … and he is right, though it seemed that from all that has gone before, you had chosen home HD. Either is better than any form of centre-based dialysis. Which, comes down to a lifestyle decision. For this, I suggest you log into and self assess your decision-making at the http://mydialysischoice.org/ program.
He said if a 24-hour urine test confirmed the numbers that the amount of time I would spend on dialysis with manual exchange could be greatly reduced.
I doubt that a 24-hour urine test, whatever the result, would likely be reliable, or particularly useful … and this is the only (tiny) part of the advice and/or management you have received from your team where I might (possibly) differ … and that difference is arguable, too.
He want me to agree that in unit dialysis could have a detrimental impact on kidneys. Namely, from excess fluid removal and the associated yo-yo effect of three days per week loss of that fluid.
[B]He is ABSOLUTELY right. For heavens sake, Max, learn to trust the man. He is on your side. He is on the right wavelength in all he is saying. He is giving you faultless advice. It is time you stopped twisting and turning for more and more advice on the net, and gave your team the trust they appear to well deserve, and work with them.
I said earlier that you should not fixate on the ‘labs’ so much. But … fixate about fluid as much as you can.
Volume is what matters in dialysis, not small perturbations in blood urea, creatinine (both are only markers), potassium (except where widely outside the normal range), and phosphate (except in the longer term).
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In any event, after learning more about PD I am now seriously considering that form of dialysis.
Good … though the benefits of PD wane over time (again, that time is measured in months or years) … and it is wise to have your back-up AVF ready and ‘there’ … as it is … even should you choose PD as your first modality.
The hope is my current level of kidney function is sufficient to greatly reduce the amount of time I spend on dialysis.
I have answered this, but take your team’s advice. Trust them. They seem to have been giving you all the correct choices, giving you the correct answers, and taking the correct steps … every step of the way.
Perhaps (with a capital “P”), the more gentle cleaning may improve my existing kidney function (nope) – which has improved over the last 5 months according to the chart. (as above).
Enough said. I cant provide you more.